"No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dreams that you wish will come true."

I'm feeling a little stressed out today. My textbook for my abnormal psych class hasn't come in the mail yet, even though I ordered it on the 7th. I desperately need it because this is a month-long summer class, so having three classes without it is like not even being in class at all. Anddd to top it off, I have a huge exam on Tuesday and a research project due. Both of which I'm unable to do without the book. I have my class notes, but the teacher said herself that what will be on the test is a lot of stuff in the book that she didn't get to cover in class. So, I need my book. I wanted to use this weekend to catch up on a lot of that kind of thing, and it would have been the perfect time to study and whatnot. Hopefully it will come Monday - then when I get home from work at 5:30 I can use the rest of the night to study, and then get up early (earlier!) for class in the morning and study again.

Enough of that, on to better things. I'm so extremely excited to get the videos of my little girl. That's all I've wanted to see since day 1 and finally they are coming my way! I don't mean to sound selfish, but I kind of wish I had gotten them sooner. I wanted to see her still in her 'baby' stage, bouncing around in her little exersaucer and stuff like that. Honestly though, I'll love and adore them whether she's 8 months old in them or 8 years old.

In other news, this week has been spent playing phone tag with my daughter's (biological) father over when he will give me the photos of him that I asked for. I don't know if I've ever mentioned this, but my mom and I want to make a book for her to look at, hopefully from time to time, that has photos of my parents (her grandma and grandpa) and photos of me from birth to present. Maybe one photo a year, or something like that. I teetered on the line of whether or not to include pictures of her dad... part of me felt like, if there are pictures of her grandparents, shouldn't there be pictures of the one that's even more closely a part of her? If there are pictures of me, shouldn't there be pictures of the other half of who she is? So I decided to include him; but not a photo every year, because I don't want to get my hopes up that he will actually even give me that many photos. Plus, he's older than me, and hates photos of himself. I wouldn't be surprised if, for the past 5 years of his life, there have been no photos taken of him (besides the 3 or 4 that I've taken). Anyways, I told him I wanted to make the book for her within the month in the hopes that he will actually get the photos to me within the month. Truthfully, I wanted to send it on or right before her first birthday as part of my gift. If I told him that, though, he wouldn't give them to me til the last week in October. Pro-cras-tin-a-tor. It scares me to realize this, but her first birthday will be here in the blink of an eye. Already she's 8 months and I can hardly believe that. Four more short months and she's 1. Unbelievable. :(

I'm off to scour the internet for as many little chunks or excerpts from my textbook that I can find, that may aid me in studying..